Don’t think you understand that I wanna care Don’t think you understand I’m on the edge of the bridge I’m on the precipice I don’t think you understand that I don’t wanna fall I’m one heartbeat away from losing it … Continue reading I Don’t Think You Understand
Rise. Fall. Rise. Fall. Deep breath in. Deep breath out. My lungs fill with air. It’s cold and clean. It’s winter morning in my chest. I’m trying to focus on my breathing. My heart is literally skipping beats. No measure of oxygen is enough to calm this terrifying pounding. This is a panic attack. It’s my third one this week. The triggers blur together now. No longer is it one instance… It is any number of things that send me falling off a cliff. Medicine is a patch that soothes the body in one moment, deceiving it into calmness. The … Continue reading Rise & Fall
It’s 2 o’clock In the morning. Thump. Thump. Thump. Goes my heart. I inhale sharply No breath reaches inside Burning ache fills my chest Air is replaced with tears They drown me from the inside out I told you once, when I am sad … My blue eyes turn gray. In these early morning hours, they are the color of steel I struggle to think Were the memories real I needed something to feel I walked outside From the whiter shade of pale My skin turned pink from the cold I dared look up to Heaven It was … Continue reading Stars
Rants Of A Virgo 