We’ve all experienced shame before. It usually happens when we do what we view to be wrong instead of what we know to be right. However, what do we do when our shame is caused not by an immoral act, … Continue reading Why I'm Letting Go of the 'Shame Spiral' I Experience With Chronic Illness
We ordered the drone strike that killed Qassem Soleimani. Taking out the political reasons for the strike, at its base it’s an assassination of a dangerous Iranian general. Ok… so I want to rewind to World History class. World War … Continue reading A Note On War
I got angry today. Internally, you may go, “And? Everyone gets angry.” To that I’d ask if you’d ever seen The Hulk. This anger is no ordinary feat. It’s bipolar rage. For many years, my emotional reaction to things was … Continue reading When My Bipolar Rage Makes Me Feel Like the Hulk
I wanted to be the perfect person I wanted to be the perfect mother I wanted to be the perfect sister I wanted to be the perfect friend I wanted to be the perfect author I wanted to be the … Continue reading Perfect
Here we go, Down Alice’s rabbit hole I drink the potion To make me sane That very same potion that drowns my pain This wound I have … It’s bleeding I’m hemorrhaging How can it heal? I haven’t stopped drowning … Continue reading Light It Up
Honeysuckle was blooming. The sweet perfume hanging in the air, as we sat on our porch on one of our slow, Southern nights. It was May, but Spring had bypassed and we felt the heaviness of Summer in each breathe. From our perch on the veranda, we saw the children play. There was a faint orange blaze as the Sun was preparing her rest and far off was that very first star in the sky at dusk. The children ran, played and squealed in excitement. Running up to us with their hands closed ever so gently… In between their sweet … Continue reading Fireflies
There I was, listening to a distraught friend. She cried into the phone. I felt myself giving her suggestions for assistance and relieved at having a direction to turn to, she thanked me and we ended our call. I found it peculiar to be thanked for information I had merely searched for online. After all, who was I to thank? I was this fraud, simply waiting on the days in which my loved ones would find out I was not the intelligent woman they knew. I’d excelled in school because things came easily and I only graduated college because I … Continue reading Feeling Like A Fraud
I stand alone Under the pitch black arms that are the oak’s shadow The heat of the sunset fades away Along with the vibrancy of Her colors In Her place, the night sky is rising Broken And oh so weary I’m not longer standing I have lost the connection I felt to that old oak tree Trunk and limbs gave me strength from the earth The sun has gone to slumber and the rays I soak in cannot sustain me So I sit beneath what no longer comforts me Unsure in this path forward Looking up I see the brightness … Continue reading Burning of the Moon
Facebook crashed today. As did Instagram. With the majority of my social media interaction today being Snapchat and Twitter, I realized how heavily I relied on Facebook and Instagram for my “fix.” Much like all coffee contains caffeine and ought to be created equal, I felt like my jolt was eminating from a cold gas station brew instead of a delicious latte from a boutique cafe. Before the sites were even down, I’d begun the arduous process of discussing social media and mental health with friends and family. In the retro style of the 90s, I actually interviewed many over … Continue reading Live. Laugh. Share.
Let’s talk about fear. Fear is a necessary part of life. It protects us from poisonous animals, falling from great heights and being in that serial killer documentary as a victim. However, fear can also be debilitating. It keeps us from flying across the world, feeling the exuberance of a roller coaster or from delivering a once in a lifetime speech to a crowd. However, few fears rule our hearts like the snake that is anxiety and social expectations. Sure, the occasional bout of anxiety is simply part of life. Whether it’s a test that’s coming up, a work presentation … Continue reading Friends, Fear and Watermelon.