I was a fatherless daughter. When I was 2, my father died. It was not an “accident.” It was not old age. He died by suicide. Every year, Father’s Day cruelly … Continue reading How My Father’s Suicide Forced Me To Acknowledge My Own Mental Illness
I hear a commercial vaguely on the television, my son is playing in his room where I hear the occasional roar of a pretend dinosaur and there is a … Continue reading Auto Pilot
Less space you inhabit. More you’re worth. My racing thoughts are uncontrollable. My ship is off course. It’s capsized. I’m drowning. No one can see. Smaller bites. Smaller servings. Congratulations … Continue reading Less.
I take another pill To wash away the pain How can I abstain When I can’t stand still Too many noises Too many voices The panic attack begins Onslaught On … Continue reading Pillz.
Trust. T. R. U. S. T. It’s this simple, five letter word which holds so much meaning. You lose it, you gain it, you break it and you restore it. … Continue reading t-r-u-s-t.
I’m bipolar. I take my thyroid medicine almost every day. I take my mood stabilizer every night. I understand the medical reasons behind why I am this way. I cry … Continue reading Struggles.
A few moments are midnight… Everyone is asleep except for myself. I attempt to wile away my insomnia with television, books, and social media. Surprise, none of it works. In … Continue reading Midnight Quiet
Lessons… Grammar. Math. Driving. Dancing. Life lessons are missing. We are not graded on life. With this post, I begrudgingly acknowledge I fail everyday. I forget to finish the laundry, … Continue reading Lessons.
Erratic. Loud. Amazing. Callous. Cold. Spoiled. Beautiful. Manic. Crazy. These words have been used to describe me, label me, and judge me. When one does not understand something, the … Continue reading Fade To Black…