Depression – Rants Of A Virgo

How My Father’s Suicide Forced Me To Acknowledge My Own Mental Illness

11 May, 2017 Rants of a Virgo 0 Comments Anxiety Disorder Bipolar Disorder Mental Health Suicide Prevention 4:30 am

I was a fatherless daughter. When I was 2, my father died. It was not an “accident.” It was not old age. He died by suicide. Every year, Father’s Day cruelly mocked me. My relationships with

Auto Pilot

8 May, 2017 Rants of a Virgo 0 Comments Anxiety Disorder Bipolar Disorder Mental Health 10:26 pm

I hear a commercial vaguely on the television, my son is playing in his room where I hear the occasional roar of a pretend dinosaur and there is a quiet jingle of a collar

Less.

28 June, 2016 Rants of a Virgo 0 Comments Uncategorized 11:44 pm

Less space you inhabit. More you’re worth. My racing thoughts are uncontrollable. My ship is off course. It’s capsized. I’m drowning. No one can see. Smaller bites. Smaller servings. Congratulations on less of my existence.

Pillz.

25 September, 2015 Rants of a Virgo 0 Comments Uncategorized 1:30 am

I take another pill To wash away the pain How can I abstain When I can’t stand still Too many noises Too many voices The panic attack begins Onslaught On shot On point Target in

t-r-u-s-t.

2 February, 2015 Rants of a Virgo 0 Comments Uncategorized 7:20 am

Trust. T. R. U. S. T. It’s this simple, five letter word which holds so much meaning. You lose it, you gain it, you break it and you restore it. Trust is a very resilient

Struggles.

29 January, 2015 Rants of a Virgo 0 Comments Uncategorized 8:07 am

I’m bipolar. I take my thyroid medicine almost every day. I take my mood stabilizer every night. I understand the medical reasons behind why I am this way. I cry at a wall, unable to

Midnight Quiet

12 January, 2015 Rants of a Virgo 0 Comments Uncategorized 5:15 am

A few moments are midnight… Everyone is asleep except for myself. I attempt to wile away my insomnia with television, books, and social media. Surprise, none of it works. In the bitter cold of January,

Lessons.

13 October, 2014 Rants of a Virgo 0 Comments Uncategorized 1:43 am

Lessons… Grammar. Math. Driving. Dancing. Life lessons are missing. We are not graded on life. With this post, I begrudgingly acknowledge I fail everyday. I forget to finish the laundry, I feed my son fast

Fade To Black…

23 August, 2014 Rants of a Virgo 0 Comments Uncategorized 6:18 am

Erratic. Loud. Amazing. Callous. Cold. Spoiled. Beautiful. Manic. Crazy. These words have been used to describe me, label me, and judge me. When one does not understand something, the first instinct is to attempt

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