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Burning of the Moon

Rants of a Virgo

I stand alone Under the pitch black arms that are the oak’s shadow The heat of the sunset fades away Along with the vibrancy of Her colors In Her place, the night sky is rising Broken And oh so weary I’m not longer standing I have lost the connection I felt to that old oak tree Trunk and limbs gave me strength from the earth The sun has gone to slumber and the rays I soak in cannot sustain me So I sit beneath what no longer comforts me Unsure in this path forward Looking up I see the brightness … Continue reading Burning of the Moon

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Live. Laugh. Share.

Rants of a Virgo

Facebook crashed today. As did Instagram. With the majority of my social media interaction today being Snapchat and Twitter, I realized how heavily I relied on Facebook and Instagram for my “fix.” Much like all coffee contains caffeine and ought to be created equal, I felt like my jolt was eminating from a cold gas station brew instead of a delicious latte from a boutique cafe. Before the sites were even down, I’d begun the arduous process of discussing social media and mental health with friends and family. In the retro style of the 90s, I actually interviewed many over … Continue reading Live. Laugh. Share.

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Friends, Fear and Watermelon.

Rants of a Virgo

Let’s talk about fear. Fear is a necessary part of life. It protects us from poisonous animals, falling from great heights and being in that serial killer documentary as a victim. However, fear can also be debilitating. It keeps us from flying across the world, feeling the exuberance of a roller coaster or from delivering a once in a lifetime speech to a crowd. However, few fears rule our hearts like the snake that is anxiety and social expectations. Sure, the occasional bout of anxiety is simply part of life. Whether it’s a test that’s coming up, a work presentation … Continue reading Friends, Fear and Watermelon.

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Wish.

Rants of a Virgo

From blue to orange The heat of the hues exhalation of air I make a wish the sky filled with darkness scattered diamonds glistening by the light of the moon fall, fall, fall little star. come to this earth, I make a wish I gaze upon you and you do not know how beautiful you are in my eyes Roll over, a rainbow halo is on your pillow as I move from my side to yours feeling my skin; once you said it was like silk listening to my drawl as we walk along an ancient city by the sea … Continue reading Wish.

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Personification.

Rants of a Virgo

I want to write you I want to write you into darkness Disappear into blackness I’d have you write your lyrics on your wrists To be sung about on the Styx I want you to disappear into oblivion No Heaven No Hell Simply you alone with your thoughts Always. Depression is a blackguard that will steal your joy. Depression, if anything, is the utter absence of hope. Imagine awaking each day, with no hope… that each day will blur the line into the next and only slumber separates you. If Continue reading Personification.

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Shining A Light

Rants of a Virgo

    Today has been a no spoon day. There is no silverware in the drawer. I have spent nearly two days in bed. My depression is severe and my thoughts have been dangerous and deadly. In an attempt to feel something as I have always responded to music, I turned on The Grammys and my heart fluttered for the first time in weeks. Lady GaGa and Bradley Cooper had won the Best Pop Duo/Group Performance and she went onstage to accept. In her acceptance, this light she is under, this moment for her to glow like the incredible woman … Continue reading Shining A Light

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THANK U, NEXT

Rants of a Virgo

“You’re the one I want to want.” “I’m not ready for a relationship, but we can be friends.” “You’re great, really… I’m just not feeling a connection…” All very tactful ways of saying, “he/she is just not that into you…” They wrote books and there’s even a movie about it. So, why don’t we listen? It seems simple: we don’t want to. We want to believe we are the exception and with the right amount of kindness and patience, we can convince this person we are the unconditional love in their life they’ve searched for? It’s excruciating. It is a … Continue reading THANK U, NEXT

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Broken.

Rants of a Virgo

Our ordinary days. Each one filled with obligations, stress, and hopefully, a moment of laughter. I am of a school of thought that is optimistic, despite heartbreak and disappointment, that we all deserve and are entitled to be loved and wanted. On one of your ordinary days, there will be one person that makes this day different. It will be a feeling or sense you are unable to shake, but also cannot put it into words. As the hours and days go by, that moment will fall by the wayside as life goes on and we place that moment on … Continue reading Broken.

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I Don’t Know How I’m Suppose To Feel

Rants of a Virgo

I was dressed for the movies. I was getting ready to walk out the door to watch the early exploits of RBG. I got a message. I made a call. That’s how I found out my best friend from childhood and my early teenage years was gone, never to grace this earth with his presence again. I felt nothing. My hands grew numb. My feet became numb and my legs were air. It was a concerted effort to stand. In the span of a few minutes, I’d forgotten to breathe. I inhaled a gasp of air and my lungs felt … Continue reading I Don’t Know How I’m Suppose To Feel